seven months ago, my girlfriend of three years got pregnant. i was totally freaked out and unprepared and pressured her to abort the child. she had the abortion and looking back, i was a total prick about the whole thing. we fought constantly afterwards and it was impossible to look at her. forget having sex. i blamed her for everything and after i cussed her out in a drunken rage, she moved out.
since then, i've been in a state of grief - about her, the unborn child and my assholeish behavior. i have no idea how to deal. i'm only writing you because i can't talk to my boys about this and i honestly think i'm starting to develop a drinking problem (four times a week i get pissy drunk). therapy isn't my thing, but i need to do something.
will i always feel guilty? do i try to get her back?
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